i tired of hoping

doing something stupid in my life. HOPING.
i hate hoping too much. cause the end of hoping just pain. a ton of pains.
i feel so sick of it.
sometimes i think life is not fair.
what other people want, they get it. but me? just hoping all day, but what i get?
NOTHING.
yeah. dear god, i just want my life is full of happiness like before. just that. like 2 years ago i mean.
i know i can't go back to the past and change everything.
but please god, i just need feel happy. that's all i need.
but i will still hoping. no matter what. maybe it's not the time.
but i believe the time will come soon.
i believe :)




love,
Joanna